( not even slightly interested... )

guess i'm not the only one who finds plotting the demise of the one you love only to be constantly foiled romantic.

*le sigh*

this journal is friends-only. add me, i will add you. for more writing see alatya.

Hi All! 
  I have a new-new blog project I've just started over at blogspot.  Check it out if you are interested in Green Living!

Suits To Sandals: A Newbie's Guide to Green Living

Suits To Sandals is a green living primer for anyone who is interested in lowering your carbon footprint, saving money, becoming self-sufficient, and saving the world (while you're at it). No matter who or how you live today, from corporate slaves, code monkeys, stay-at-home moms, just about everyone can take little practical steps to transform your life into a simpler, greener, more balance lifestyle.

Ok, live journal world - I've started a new blog over off my google account.  Check it out!

http://diguide.blogspot.com/

I knew it as soon as it happened, though I'm still not quite sure how.  This was my heart beating, not his.  This is my fist, splattered even as it was with blood.  These are my lungs heaving, and there is no going back.

I have these little pops and bursts of words, conversations, images and starts. But there's no story, I don't know where its going. It's just words and a flash, a scene, without any prologue, any plot. Weren't we all taught that a story must have a beginning, a middle, and an end? What then is with this uncontrollable pull towards the thick of it? Skip the boring, go right to the good stuff. 

It feels like I, us, we have developed a collective case of ADD.  We can't tolerate a story that requires all that much focus.  Give us aggregations, summaries, tweets, podcasts.  Life is now lived in cliff-notes, not novels.  But that's just the way it is, right?  It's not like we can go backwards, right?  And every story has to have a beginning, a middle, and an end, preferably happy or miserable, none of this mediocre reality stuff.  Give us the good stuff, and nothing but the good stuff.

thinking i'm going to resurrect the live journal. facebook is so crowded, noisey, and getting more and more impossible to keep up with. i miss the intimacy of journaling. i miss the connections it allows to be formed. i miss writing. i miss being forced to sit down an give attention fully to an idea, a person, an image, a voice. something beyond the day-to-day goings on. the glimpse into the reality of an individual.

and, i admit, with being here in kentucky, i miss being connected to my friends. facebook just doesn't cut it. there's not much space, privacy, or time for that "true" interaction, conversation, communication.

so, i guess i'll give this a try again, and see what comes of it. if nothing else, it might get me writing and being creative again, instead of playing WoW ;)

i will be posting to friends and friends groups from here on out. so if you are curious and want to read or keep in touch, create an account and add me.

ok, i am really enjoying this book...i might even go buy a copy!

"Programming is an art. Any programmer will agree it takes a lot of creativity to solve problems with a computer. Creative people have an advantage in that they are not afraid to explore new avenues of design. Their open-mindedness and readiness to accept new ideas gives them the ability to see problems differently from people who tend towards the cut and dry. This section offers a few suggestions on how you can stimulate your creativity."

-Java for Artists


also....now i think i understand where all my creative energy has been going lately and why i haven't been writing anything all that creative....i think i write an awful lot less when i am in a job that actually challenges me....hmmm.


"Set rules. Let your friends and family know that it s not cool to bother you when you are programming. I know it sounds rude, but when you get into the flow, which is discussed below, you will become agitated when someone interrupts your train of thought to ask you about school lunch tomorrow or the location of the car keys. Establish the ground rules up front that say when it is a good time to disturb you when you are programming. The rule is - never!
Concept Of The Flow

Artists tend to become absorbed in their work, not eating and ignoring personal hygiene for days, even weeks, at a time. Those who have experienced such periods of intense concentration and work describe it as a transcendental state where they have complete clarity of the idea of the finished product. They tune out the world around them, living inside a cocoon of thought and energy.

Programmers can get into the flow. I have achieved the flow. You too can achieve the flow. When you do, you will crave the feeling of the flow again. It is a good feeling, one of complete and utter understanding of what you are doing and where you are going with your source code. You can do amazing amounts of programming while in the flow."

YES! that is me to a T. esp. when i am absorbed...i kinda snap at anyone who bothers me...:-/ i guess i'm not the only one though....hmm

i'd ask:

why is there something -- everything, instead of nothing?


i find it hard to believe that man, even one reduce to primitive ways, (forgetting even most letters), could not come up with a basic unanswerable question...

if that failed, i'd just hold up a piece of paper with this written on it:

int something = 1;
for (int i = 0; i < something; i++)
{
something = i + 1;
}

because silly graphs are guarenteed to cheer any geek up, no matter the situation...

bloodsuckers

*giggles*
this reminds of that time at the dinner table that alex was playing with pretend hats with me. first he put a blue hat on my head. then he put a red hat ontop of my blue pretend hat. two hats? how silly! then i sneezed them both off onto his plate :)